i love these “what if x happened to your icon” posts because my icon is a blurry pic out a rainy window. what if your partner in crime was some green and pink smudges. what if the view from my bedroom took you on a date. what if an out of focus wet tree told you it loved you.
unlearning problematic behavior is a long ass process
you will fuck up
handle it gracefully.
It’s also… you’re not resetting to some sort of innate default. There isn’t a real core you that knows better and is above mistreating people; it’s — you’re learning a new skill. It’s not about purity. It’s about learning.